when I moved to the most cutthroat city in the world: New York. Everyday, I was in and out of stressful auditions, working hospitality jobs that depleted my joy, and experiencing rejection on a daily basis.
After two years of 'the grind,' my ED's still going strong, I booked my first long-term, well paying job as an actor. That job changed my life. I was able to do what I LOVE every day, I felt a new sense of purpose and validity, and I settled into mindfulness practices like meditation, journaling and yoga. At the end of the 8 months I spent on that job, I returned home, and my family and friends didn't recognize me! I had lost 40 pounds without trying. No one could believe that I hadn't dieted or started exercising more. The truth was, it wasn't what I had done, it was what I had stopped doing: I had stopped punishing myself for not being skinny, and found value in myself that I hadn't seen before. In that space, the weight came off naturally.